My little girl.

So, I am finally getting around to posting about my dog.
I guess in some ways I have been trying to avoid it. It was just so random and unexpected that she died so it was hard for me. Not only because of that but, i guess i have never really experienced death before.

Anyways, Harley got parvo when we moved to the new house. And unfortunately we did not notice the symptoms of it until it was too late. :( It happened over Labor Day weekend. She started getting weaker and weaker and would not eat her food. When we were going to take her in it was Monday and everything was closed so we brought her back and basically watched her get worse. And by that night she just looked like the walking dead. It was heartbreaking. Later on that night we smelt this horrible smell all the way upstairs so we went down to see what happened and turns out she had pooped straight blood. :( And so Ray and Ross took her to be put down country boy style.

So, the first couple days of last week were hard for me. I bawled like a baby and it was all i could think about for a while. And that part bugged me that i just couldn't give it up and i felt stupid for crying so much about a dog. but i couldn't help it. the more i thought about it the more confused i felt. i kept wondering what the heck she is doing now and what is next for her like she was a human or something. and then i would wonder what really it was like for animals on the other side? is that dumb? i mean, i don't even need to know that, yet it crossed my mind constantly. and i couldn't let it go. Then one night I was talking to ray and we were talking about how trials in our lives always have a lesson or meaning behind them. He also said that for him facing death is not a scary or hard thing for him because he keeps an eternal perspective. When he said that, first i was mad because hello, i should already have that knowledge and i should already be in that mind set and then instantly i realized that was really what i needed to learn from this.

Yes, it was a dog. And yes she is gone now, but I am grateful to have learned a little more about life and the next step after. I'm trying to gain my eternal perspective and as i study i know ill get there. I think I've also learned more about the atonement, that it helps to heal not only from sin but from sorrows. It's easy to say that you know something but understanding it is completely different. So this experience has helped me to grow so more. It was unfortunate, but essential in life.

To put it short, Ray says, "A trial to some may be a blessing to others."
I think he just made that up. :)