Baby girl.

Let me just say if you are sick of hearing about my child, I get it because that's how I was. (You might want to stop reading now because I no longer feel that way.) When you become a parent all of a sudden that's basically all you care about. Somehow it turns everything you do into a purpose for someone other than yourself or your spouse. And really it doesn't even start until the baby is here. Like, I had gestational diabetes while pregnant and yes I was selfish and still ate whatever I wanted not really thinking of how it affected Hadley, and luckily it didn't and she was super healthy!!! But as soon as you leave the hospital and that baby is yours forever things change.  You can't be selfish anymore. I had to think about what I ate so she doesn't get a tummy ache, I had to think about when I could shower so that she wasn't left alone crying for too long, when to go out in public so she doesn't get sick, when to changer a diaper so she doesn't get a rash...the list is endless of selfless things you learn to do and become because this little human is far more important than yourself.  It's crazy. People my age are not parents. At least not the majority of them. Priorities are different! But, I did get married at 19, so...I guess I skipped the whole college thing. You know what, I wouldn't trade that for anything.  This family of mine has given me a different perspective on why we are here! Even though my whole life I was taught that and believed it, when you start living it, then you really understand. God designed families this way for that reason. People always ask me why Mormon families are so huge and why everyone has like 6 kids.  It's so simple. The "churchy" answer would be because "God wants us to multiply and replenish the earth." Aka have kids. It's no secret. But it easier than that, it makes us happy! True happiness. It's not gonna go away like after eating a  juicy good burger and then heartburn kicks in. Or like how I used to love those shoes but then I got blisters so now I hate them. This happiness lasts a lifetime and longer.  (Let me just mention also that the church does not tell us how many kids to have, every couple decides on their own how many to have and when they feel is right for them.) Plain and simple, families make this life worth living. Doesn't mean it's not gonna be hard and that I won't wanna punch the wall when my kids act up. Doesn't mean that we won't have trials and heartbreak, it just means that everything we go through we will go through together, and who better to have along side you than the people you love most?!  I'm so grateful for my little girl! She's given me the opportunity to be a responsible adult, but also  renewed that love I have for Ray. I remember when we first came home from the hospital and we just laid on the bed for a good while and watched everything Hadley girl did. Which wasn't much, but we were so in love with this little girl. We made this little being! And watching each other care for her allowed us to love each other more. Also, it makes me appreciate my parents and in-laws more. Parents do so much for us!!! And being a parent is so gratifying. It doesn't get better than this guys.

So, will I have more kids? Absolutely! 

And of course, I can't blog without putting up pictures. And guess what they are of?! ;)