Change!

Turns out I like change after all! :)

Remember that nasty yellow room that actually i loved the color? well look at it now!

this picture doesnt even do justice... but it looks great now. :) im starting to like fixing up our home.

and we got a new dog! her name is jix. she is a 10 month old great pyrenees.

and we were bored and so we took one of ourselves! haha

My little girl.

So, I am finally getting around to posting about my dog.
I guess in some ways I have been trying to avoid it. It was just so random and unexpected that she died so it was hard for me. Not only because of that but, i guess i have never really experienced death before.

Anyways, Harley got parvo when we moved to the new house. And unfortunately we did not notice the symptoms of it until it was too late. :( It happened over Labor Day weekend. She started getting weaker and weaker and would not eat her food. When we were going to take her in it was Monday and everything was closed so we brought her back and basically watched her get worse. And by that night she just looked like the walking dead. It was heartbreaking. Later on that night we smelt this horrible smell all the way upstairs so we went down to see what happened and turns out she had pooped straight blood. :( And so Ray and Ross took her to be put down country boy style.

So, the first couple days of last week were hard for me. I bawled like a baby and it was all i could think about for a while. And that part bugged me that i just couldn't give it up and i felt stupid for crying so much about a dog. but i couldn't help it. the more i thought about it the more confused i felt. i kept wondering what the heck she is doing now and what is next for her like she was a human or something. and then i would wonder what really it was like for animals on the other side? is that dumb? i mean, i don't even need to know that, yet it crossed my mind constantly. and i couldn't let it go. Then one night I was talking to ray and we were talking about how trials in our lives always have a lesson or meaning behind them. He also said that for him facing death is not a scary or hard thing for him because he keeps an eternal perspective. When he said that, first i was mad because hello, i should already have that knowledge and i should already be in that mind set and then instantly i realized that was really what i needed to learn from this.

Yes, it was a dog. And yes she is gone now, but I am grateful to have learned a little more about life and the next step after. I'm trying to gain my eternal perspective and as i study i know ill get there. I think I've also learned more about the atonement, that it helps to heal not only from sin but from sorrows. It's easy to say that you know something but understanding it is completely different. So this experience has helped me to grow so more. It was unfortunate, but essential in life.

To put it short, Ray says, "A trial to some may be a blessing to others."
I think he just made that up. :)

Updates from the last couple months...

I still can't believe it's August guys!

Well here is what we have been up to for the last couple of months:

June we went to Hillary's wedding. :) it was awesome we are so happy for them. And their height difference is cute. hahaha i'm a little bit biased. ;)
And once again, my nephews and niece LOVED and adored Ray and pretended like I didn't exist.



And in July we went up to Eagar and it was tons of fun like always, this time i tried to be brave on the horse and it ended not so great. I was just going back and forth in front of the house and was working my way up to a run when the horse just took off and headed for the main road, that's where i fell of and got this nice little booger, which is now a scar. I got pretty lucky that i fell off before we got into the street and i missed the light poll by like 10 inches, and didn't get a concussion like Nat (sister in law) did... so this cut and some road rash and bruises on my butt and knees were about it. My earring got the most damage. :( May they rest in peace.



And in other news, I CUT MY HAIR! :) it feels so much better with the heat out here i could not stand it for another minute!!!!!! and i went back to my natural color, well i went back to brown i guess i should say...i felt really awkward taking pictures of myself in the parking lot at night outside Albertson. haha oh well.

Walmart on Saturday night.

What a bad idea! The lines were horrible.



But the good news is this:






FOR only like 10 bucks! That's what's up!

Fourth of July Weekend

So, Ray Ray was in the RODEOOOOOOOOOBOW WOW!!! (that's from a song people). Garth Brooks look it up, it's good.


ANYHOW, he was so dang cute up there on that there horsey! :) I only wish I could say the same for me, but that didn't turn out so well because I fell off. And that's a different story.

The race that he did was called the KEG RACE and he ALMOST WON!!!
So basically its like musical chairs with horses. So they start out sitting, jump on their horse and then race around the barrel and hope to get a chair, because one is taken away every time they race. Somehow, LaDell managed to be one of the two left for the last race....

So here is the video from the last race!

Dust in the Wind...

all we are is dust in the wind.

So right now.......THERE IS A CRAZY DUST STORM OUTSIDE. and it is my first. So we dared to go outside and now all i feel is dust in my eyes, and i can taste it and smell it!!!! and i regret going out there! but i just had to experience it you know. i mean, the whole outside is dark from the dust. it was blue and sunny even and then BAM! i took pictures and all you can see is the dust specks!


Tell me this isn't crazy!

Weddings, babies, and life.

Well, it doesn't feel like wedding season, but it is because, we have already been to 3 weddings since ours, and I know there's at least two more before we even have our one year anniversary. But that's okay because I love weddings! So last week we went to my cousin's wedding and then yesterday we went to Ray's cousin's wedding. and that, was the first one I did not cry in! I'm making progress guys! But, seriously, I can't help it once they start talking about families and being together forever I become uncontrollable with the tears.

We went to institute a few weeks ago with our friends Brady and Emma from our ward and it was SUCH an awesome class. We talked about the creation and stuff and how it relates to the atonement and then, at the end of class the teacher put on this video and in the end it said something about how the whole purpose and such was to have and experience families... that was the jist of it, anyhow, the guy puts up a picture of his family afterwards and says, "Heavenly father did all of this so I could have THIS family"...and he was crying a little bit, and okay lets face it I WANTED TO CRY TOO! but since Ray and I and Brady and Emma were the only married people in there it would just be odd. So i held it in. But really guys, that's such an amazing thing. Wish you could have been there because it was an eye opener.

Which reminds me, HOLY COW everyone is having babies!!!!!!! Are we missing something here???!?!?!? haha :) I'm happy for you all and one day we will have children too and our children will be friendsies and play. Which brings me back to families. Seriously, that's really what its all about. and i LOVE that. Family is the backbone. Enough said. I'm gonna put up some pictures now because its been a long while. :)




p.s. Ray shaved his beard again but he will not allow pictures, so sorry!